My thoughts.

Doing a little blog cuz i'm feeling sorry for myself and need a release. So recently i've been diagnosed with Coeliacs disease. I know it's not a huge thing but knowing in the back of my mind that i'm gonna have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life is something i'm really struggling to cope with. It seems everything gluten hidden. Which is really difficult eating because if I assume something doesn't have it in and i eat it, bam..i'm ill. Which i've discovered with pringles and sausage. Gluten food is so expensive too, in the last month i think i've spent about £80 on it. Bread, pasta, sausages..they're nice and worth it to eat properly but i'm not gonna be able to afford it soon. I can't even have small amounts. If I keep eating gluten and it's harming my body, it can cause infertility or bowel cancer, which is such a scary thought. But yeah, it's a huge amount to get my head around, i hate it.
On top of that, i've lost a few friends this year..I'd love to blame them entirely for that but sometimes it was my fault. 2010 has made me realise who my real friends are..the real friends that you know are gonna be there in 5,10,15 years time for you to count on. Ones that perhaps you'd pushed aside for one reason or another, there they are in times of trouble. The keepers. The ones you can trust with your life. Anyone else can piss off as far as i'm concerned. I'm a good person. I don't deserve to take shit from anyone thats not necessary.
Saying that, 2010 has been the best year of my life. I'm happier than i've ever been. I've met people that really have changed my life and have made me such a happy and confident person. I hope 2011 is the same!

I haven't done a blog in so long, unsure of why. Too busy maybe? Not enough to say or worried of what I'd say. I've learnt a lot the last few weeks. I've learnt who to trust, who to believe and who to wipe completely from my mind. The latter being liars. Now I understand occasionally people tell white lies or fail to tell you things. But if you ask someone something and they reel off lies only for you to find out weeks later it's bullshit, expect the silent treatment. This is my current predicament. Someone who I trusted immensely has let me down, a lot. This person was one of the few I thought would never betray me and they have done.
So is that a problem with me? or them? Have I done something that causes people to feel the need to lie to me? Maybe I'm naive and too trusting, i don't know. But the pain of having someone break your trust like this, is absolutely horrible. And quite honestly, it's put me off trusting anyone in the future.

Ah in the mood for a good typing sesh in the blog so. Not in the best of moods sadlyy. Finished a stressful morning in college, lots more work added on. Rang mum to find that she'd dropped a pan of boiling water on her arm, awesome. So since i got home i've been shopping for her, and been making endless cups of tea! I don't mind but i'm absolutely shattered already. She's sat next to me now with her arm in a bowl of cold water in an attempt to fix it. She's the biggest clutz i've ever known bless her. In the meantime, she's sat there, i've fallen asleep twice in the space of 6 hours. I have zero energy anymore. I don't know whether it's because it's winter or because of early mornings but i literally lack energy 24/7 lately. I'm unsure of whether to be worried by it or just deal. But i'm finding it difficult to go the whole day without having a lil nap even if it's just 20 minutes. I'm gonna turn this into a moany blog just because I can. College is an absolute joke. Our biology teachers had about 9 months to sort work out, mark it and hand it back for corrections. Instead, he hasn't done it all and anytime we ask for said work, we're told to get back to him next week. Find him today and when we ask for work, he suggests we come in tomorrow on our day off to collect it and to discuss it. Not happy. Not going to happen. I'm all for him sorting out work out and talking us through it, but sod coming in on my day off. I want a lie in and then i'm gonna have to go shopping again for mum. Bit more important than some old man who evidently can't do his job. I'm gonna leave it at this now, rant is done and my fingers have been faster than Usain Bolt. :)

Bit bored so i thought i'd blog it up whilst watching come dine with me. Had an okay day! I went out to find something cosy to wear for London but failed miserabley because all the cosy jumpers are a bit christmassy. So i bought a hat instead. Not that its going to keep me warm in the slightest but it looks nice. I'm so excited for London. Getting the coach down now, which originally i was a little apprehensive about but on thinking about it, it'll probably work out best :) lots of chatting on the way. Gonna feel like a bit of a meff taking a suitcase on the train to Liverpool but oh well! I'll work it. So now a night of x factor and munch is on the cards, nomnom. :)

Thought i'd pop a blog on before i dry my hair. I'm absolutely knackered tonight. Another early morning (7am) and i literally am gagging for a lie in. Roll on thursday! I'm super tired but i still have to do my hair and nails ready for tomorrow. College i cannot be arsed with. Left the museum on monday so no doubt i'm going to get screamed at. On top of that i have a blister on the sole of my foot and i can't walk properly :( not happy!! 2 more days of college and a weekend then LONDON :D yay.

Aw i've had such a lovely lil day. Early start 4am for the carboot sale with the best friend and mother. Absolutely banter filled beyond belief, was mucho fun. Can't imagine it'd be fun sitting on your own really. The stuff people sell there is unreal. One man had in his lil stall thing; a bong, a lamp, a blender, a microphone, caprisun and door handles. Who is going to buy those things? Seriously? I'm super super exhausted now though despite zonking out for 2 hours at 5pm. Ready for my bed right now i tell ya. Up at 6am tomorrow, joys. 2 and a half hours of biology then a trip to the slave museum. Always good.

"Yeh..they're them shoes that are made specially for your feet..orthapedic!"

I'm finally feeling human again. It's been the longest 6 days of my life. So i'll be nice and alive for London, which i'm pathetically excited about. I think if you've never been it's a big deal? I'm having a carboot sale tomorrow to raise funds for it. I'm looking forward to it actually, i know it's just sat selling stuff but i'm quite excited. Spend the day with Meg, lovelyy! Not looking forward to getting up at silly o'clock. I love my sleep too muchhh. Going to do my hair now to save time in the morning, i'm oh so organised.